Busy is Me... =D

Going to boot camp tomorrow.... I won't be free until after Christmas... Wee~~~~~ =D

Diocesan Youth Camp

Not gonna write a lot here, cos' the camp is beyond words, I'm just gonna write a sentence to describe it: The camp is speechlessly, fabulously, insanely, crazily, amazingly, OMG-ly, AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Shout-outs:
Adam & Ah Le: The jokes are forever in my mind! xD
Sheerah, Jason, Eddy and all the other pastors and committees: You guys are AWESOME!!!! =D
Xie Yen: I want your Stitch.... ='(
Rachel: I'm not 19!!!!! TT^TT
Xue Ting: Change name la, I dun wan doraemon dy... =P
Jerry, Alex and other tabletennis-ers: REMATCH!!!! xP
Kai: Too bad you didn't come... =(
Timothy Ong: Dolphins rule!
Mag: Miss mad! xP

And finally to all the DYC campers: The memories with you guys will never be forgotten, I seriously miss you guys... Love you all! <3

You guys are....... THE BEST!!!!!!!!

3rd music video uploaded...

Me and Daniel's 3rd duet music video has been uploaded... =)

Go check it out: http://www.youtube.com/user/SSSO95?feature=mhum

Another vid uploaded...

Went to Daniel's house again today and recorded another music video... It's an instrumental...

Go check it out: http://www.youtube.com/user/SSSO95?feature=mhum

Great and meaningful day...

Went to Daniel's house today... Our purpose is to record a few music videos... First we practiced and choose some songs from a collection. After that, we finally chose two songs and recorded it today...

I felt really warm while at Daniel's house... His family is AWESOME!!!

We've uploaded a video on Youtube... It's called "It's Your Love" by Hillsong United. Hope you like it!!! =D

http://www.youtube.com/user/SSSO95?feature=mhum

What is LOVE?

What is LOVE? Is love just about loving yourself? Love is SELFLESS, not SELFISH! Do you really know what TRUE LOVE is? TRUE LOVE is about SACRIFICE... TRUE LOVE is GOD, GOD is TRUE LOVE! LOVE is PATIENT, LOVE is KIND, it does not ENVY, it does not BOAST. It isn't PROUD, LOVE is not RUDE, it isn't SELF-SEEKING, it is not easily ANGERED, it keeps no record of WRONGS. LOVE does not delight in evil, LOVE rejoices in TRUTH, LOVE goes ON and ON, it NEVER FAILS!

CHRIST is LOVE! CHRIST is the true DEFINITION of true LOVE. He died for EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US. Yes, EVERY SINGLE ONE! He's nail-scarred hands has PROVEN His LOVE for us. His LOVE has broken the barriers of SIN, setting free us SINNERS. We are walking out of SIN as an innocent FREE MAN. He died taking our SIN away with HIM. He is the REASON why we are here today. LOVE does not mean total FREEDOM. LOVE means walking out of your COMFORT-ZONE. LOVE means RISKING your LIFE for others.

There is NO greater LOVE than THIS. So you think you know about TRUE LOVE? Think again!

Haiz.... Pity.... =(

I just got news today that our newly formed band has been invited to perform at Jammin' Senzation, Tanjung Tokong's open day, that is on the 28th of November (Sunday). It will be our very first PERFORMANCE........................ if we could even make it. TT^TT

Our vocalist couldn't make it 'cos she has LEO camp on that day... I couldn't make it too because I've got to go DYC the next day...

Sigh... too bad we had to miss our very first performance... But I'm sure we'll have plenty of chances to perform next year... =)

Shout-outs:
Pei Jia: Stop blaming yourself lar!!! xD
Band: Let's keep ROCKING ON!!!! =D

Back sakit! ='(

Hurt my spine today during floorball training.... haiz... Hope God can heal me fast cos there are a lot of activities coming up... =(

Butterfly Fly Away.....

Oh no, my Butterfly.... ='(

BAD HAIRDAY!!!! D=

Alrite, today is one terrible day!!! Went to school as usual... Playing as usual... Talking as usual... AND THEN>>>> Prefects suddenly charge into our "playing field" and rummaged through our bags! And I thought to myself: check all you want, I didn't bring any thing that broke the school rules! HAHA! BUT THEN>>> They called me out with a few of my "COMRADES"... They said our "FUR" are too "MESSY" and needs some "GROOMING" and they brought us to their "General's Headquarters" a.k.a. the discipline room... And we got our so-called "FUR" trimmed off so that its not so "MESSY" anymore...

Oh, how I "LOVE" this haircut.... ==

Photos of our first band practice...

A lot of band members didn't make it, so there are only four of us... Stephen is taking the picture... =)

Awesome day!

Today, right after school... My mum fetch me and Adam to Derrick's house to get his electric guitar... After that, we went to my home and had lunch... After we had our bath, I taught Adam some guitar... He has really improved a lot ever since I taught him the first time...

A while later, Stephen came and then my mum fetch all three of us to Jammin' Senzation for our very first band practice... =) When we reached there, Pei Jia is already there playing the piano... So we called her and all of us went to the studio to practice... The songs that we've practiced are Its My Life and We'll Be A Dream and a few other random songs... =p Its really a lot of fun just playing music with my band-mates... Too bad the drummer and bassist a.k.a. Chris and Daniel couldn't make it... Pei Jia's singing is AWESOME! I've never heard someone my age with a voice like hers! Honestly! While my singing is not really good today... xP

Anyway, when we finished our practice, I was surprised that my dad came and talked to the Principal of the music school! I was expecting mum to fetch me and she was already waiting outside. I totally didn't expected dad to come... Anyways, my dad went there to asked about some information of the studio because St. Nicholas' Homes is gonna have their own studio....

After that, we left the studio and went home while Pei Jia went to her friend's house... When we reached home, Stephen's parents came and fetch him home soon after while Adam stayed back for dinner... After having dinner, dad fetched him home while on the way to church for a meeting...

In conclusion, today was really AWESOME! We're gonna have the next practice with the full band 2 weeks later... By the way, Stephen took some photos during our practice and I'm gonna upload it here as soon as I get it.... =)

Shout-outs:
Adam (Keep up the good work, you are improving faster than I expected ;))
Pei Jia (Your singing is AWESOME!!!)
Stephen (Hope you can join our band... =))
Christopher, Daniel, Jay Shearn (Hope you guys can make it on the next practice)

Its finally OVER!

Woah, PMR is finally over! Seems that all my hard work might turn out great! I have great faith on all my subjects except KH, BM and BC... =S

Alright, exams over and I have some new things in life... Me and some friends have formed a rock band and is planning to have our first practice next Tuesday... And I might have electric guitar classes soon... It would be awesome! =D

Sigh, but there are still some things that wouldn't turn out great... Even though that "incident" has been a few months ago already, but that "stain" is so hard to erase... Every time I think about it, it still hurts... But I know I have to move on and let go of the past...

Anyways, I'm just gonna enjoy my life right now... Peace and God bless you all!

Shout-outs:

Kairi (Thanks for the book, its AWESOME! <3)
Pei Jia (Cheer up! =))
Marcus, Peter, Christina, Jia Ping and a lot more that I didn't list out (All the best on your SPM!!!=D)

Exaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmsssssss.... =S

Woah... Exam is coming really really really soon.... Trying to study real hard right now... Prayed to God bout lotsa things last night, and incredibly, I can feel His presence with me when I was praying.... By the way, 2 days ago we've learned a few dances from Natasha... Latin, Hip-hop, sign language... It was really fun... I'm still feeling hyper right now....=P

Anyways, exam's coming... Pressure, of course, is always there... Just have to find a way to handle it... And thank God, He showed me how... =)

Gotta go to study for my exams now... PMR is SO close.... God bless you all!!!! =D

Pesta BB 2010

Woohoo!!! Just came back from Pesta BB 2010!!! IT ROCKS!!!! It's an "once-in-two-years" carnival. The date is 11th-15th June 2010. The venue is at St. Xaviers' Institution, and our dorms are located at CLS, Hutchings and St. Xaviers'. The camp is an international camp and there are 1,700 participants.

On the first day, nothing much happened. There's the registration, the briefing etc. And later that afternoon there's the national drill competition. Despite the rain, our company, 8th Penang, got 1st place! At the evening, there is a grand opening ceremony with the "Guards of Honor" and band march. Later that night there is the band competition. Its really nice and amazing. 1st Johor Bahru got 1st place.

On the second day, there is the singing and dancing competition. The venue is at Dewan Sri Pinang. In the singing competition, we got 3rd place for singing "Trading My Sorrows". The dance team from our company got 6th place.

On the third day, we first have a service at Dewan Sri Pinang led by City Harvest Church Kuala Lumpur. The service is really amazing, I've learned a lot there. we had a treasure hunt around Georgetown, a fun fair and another talents' night called "B Idol". I entered but sadly I didn't get any prizes. I sang my own little version of "Amazing Grace".

On the fourth day, we went for tours around Penang. There are 6 regions to choose from. I chose the Balik Pulau region 'cos I seldom go there. First, we went for some sight-seeing on the hills. Later, we went to a farm to have durian and to look at animals. We saw snakes, turkeys, duck, rabbits and many many more... Then we went to the river near the farm. After that we went for lunch and then we went back to our respective dorms. That night, we had our closing ceremony. I'm the bassist for the first item, that is playing a song called "Highland Cathedral". There are bagpipes, percussion kits, keyboards, an electric guitar and a bass. The whole band is formed from a number of companies. Me (bassist), the lead bagpiper(Wei Jian), the drummer (Kai Sheng), the keyboardists(Boon Kai, Daniel) and the guitarist(Sir) represented 8th Penang Company. There are other companies like 1st Sibu and a few more.

On the fifth day is the day of departure. We bid our friends farewell and went home in happiness and also in sadness 'cos we will have to wait another two years for another Pesta BB and we will definitely miss our friends.

Alpha Weekend 2010

This camp was a month ago, sorry for being late... =P The camp was on 10th of May to the 11th of May 2010.





















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Long time no post..... =P

Sorry for being inactive in blogging for such a long time.... Everything is going well.... Me and her, that is our relationship is stable, just gotta wait till exam's over... Above all, life's great.... Well I think thats it for this post...

Peace out... =P

我人生中最珍惜的一天。。。。

今天，教会崇拜后，我们说好了要一起吃午餐，看戏剧。。。我，荣恩，凯彬，俊翔，俊凯，雪彦和他妹妹，雪莉，到 Pizza Hut 吃午餐。。。那时我不懂怎么招待你。。。我很后悔。。。对不起。。。就这样，我们用餐时也没有什么说话。。。

吃完后，我们便去看戏剧了。。。开始的时候，我坐在你妹妹的旁边，而你就坐在他的另一旁。。。那时我没机会跟你说话，只好发信息给你。。。我担心你冷，所已就问你你是否很冷。。。你说是，而且没有安全感。。。但是我却没有外套借你。。。我又想跟你说声对不起。。。

上半场结束了，我们便有五分钟的休息时间。。。我们到auditorium外逛了一会儿，就回到我们的位置。。。这次你妹妹坐在最尾端，而我就坐在你的另一旁。。。我记得你说你没有安全感，也很冷，所以就借你我的背包抱抱。。。我看着你，感觉上你已经开心多了，我也替你感到高兴。。。

看到一半，当一个爱情戏剧在进行的时候，我发现你流泪了。。。那时我就想起你的烦恼，你所受的痛苦。。。那时我很愚蠢。。。我真的不懂该怎么做。。。不知道什么时候，我就轻微把你抱了。。。这也是我人生中的第一次。。。你哭的时候，我心里真的很疼。。。我也无法解释为什么我会心疼。。。就这样我就一直安慰你。。。不久，那个爱情戏剧就完了，你也停止哭泣了。。。我也把我的手拿开了。。。

戏剧看完了以后，很可惜的，我们便要离别了。。。这时，我最期待与担忧的时候到了。。。我们走到了auditorium外面，我就紧张的把我画给你的一幅画，送给你。。。那时，我不知道你的感觉会如何。。。你只笑着跟我说你会回家慢慢地研究我那幅画。。。那时，我终于放下我心中的大石头了。。。

我们一起坐了电梯，说声再见过后，我们就各走各路了。。。

就这样，我人生中最珍惜的一天，就成为过去了。。。。

---I don't know if you feel the same about me as I feel about you---
---我还在等待着你的答案---

The other photos of "True Worship"...

I couldn't upload the photos here due to an error... If you guys wanna see the photos, go to this site: http://loves2us-events.blogspot.com/


God Bless!!! =)

Prayer Meeting @ School

Today, I went to school as always... I woke up at the same time as always, took a bath as always, brushed my teeth as always and ate breakfast as always... Exactly like a robot cause I'm doing these things automatically without thinking, as it has become my habit on a regular school day... Later, dad fetched me to school...

I reached school 10 minutes later... I was walking at the corridor towards my class when suddenly Jeremy came and talked to me... He asked me if I wanna go to the prayer meeting... I've heard about the prayer meetings for the morning class last year... So I thought of attending this year, but I've never had a chance because of my tight schedules... So I agreed with Jeremy and went to class to leave my bag there... A while later, I went to the judo room where the prayer meetings are held... As I sat down, I heard that they are talking about the unity between Christians... After we finished talking about it, we started praying... We took turns to pray... As we were praying, I could strongly sense that the Holy Spirit is with us... When it is my turn to pray, I was so touched by the Holy Spirit that my eyes started tearing up... As I ended my prayer, Jeremy ended the prayers with a closing prayer... After that, I felt that my eyes stopped tearing up and I wiped my tears away... Then, I went back to class... The teacher is already in class and I was afraid that he would scold me... I was surprised and relieved at the same time that he just smiled at me when I said good morning to him...

Nothing much happened today other than the prayer meeting.... I've told myself that I will attend the prayer meetings as often as I can and I hope that my schedule would leave me some free time to attend the prayer meetings....

Well, that's it for now... Peace! =)

These are some of the photos I got from Abigail's facebook... Gonna upload more soon...=)

This is the game we played... The objective is to lift the bucket of water with our legs without spilling it...


Another game that we played... The objective is to spin for 10 rounds, take a ping-pong ball with a spoon, and then come back...


Me...


Euson...


Wei Yang...


Cornelius...


Xue Ting...


The props for the games...



Me and Peter...


Our straw structure in the making...


Our finished straw structure...


Our team sharing our opinions... After the straw structure...


Our team... ESTHER!!!



All credits goes to Abigail for the photos... =)

"True Worship" Camp

Three letters... W.O.W!! The camp is awesome! I've made a lot of friends there, re-made a lot of friends there cause last time when we met we seldom talked, had a lot of fun, and of course, I've learned so much!

The people from our church that went there are Me, Andrew, Peter, Adam, Cheah Ping and Eunice...

On the 1st day, we played games such as water games... Our team got 1st place in the games...Our team is team Esther... And the funny thing is our team cheer: We got...nobody nobody but you... Esther!! haha... And believe it or not... Xue Ting splashed water at me and covered my face with flour! ==
That night, we listened to a talk by one of the teachers there, and the talk is about true worship... I've learned quite a lot there... =)

Okay, now the second day... I woke up earlier than the others because I didn't sleep well that night.. I woke up at I think around 5:30AM... So after I woke up, I went for a bath and then went to the hall... There is no one there at that time... I went to the stage and took the acoustic guitar and started playing it... Not long after, Leon and Yew Xian came and I taught Leon some of the skills I know on the guitar...
So after breakfast and P&W, we started learning a warm-up dance... And after that, we went for the courses... There are two courses that we can choose to participate in... Me, Andrew, Peter and Adam chose the drama course while Cheah Ping and Eunice chose dance...

The drama course is remarkably AWESOME!!! We learned how to express our feelings... After the course... we had two scenes that the teacher wanted us to act... He chose me Peter and Adam and two other teachers... He let us lie down and let our emotions flow... The scene is about 5 wild creatures fighting for the place to be the King of the Kingdom of Creatures... So what happened next surprised me... I was the 1st one to get up and get into the scene... The emotions flowed in me like crazy! Anger, Hatred, Determination, Anticipation to be the king circled me... I've forgotten that that are more than 20 people in the room... We fought like we are real enemies... I think myself as a wolf... So what happened next is on my account: In just a few seconds, Peter was pushed to the ground, bitten and killed by one of the teachers, the first one I fought is on of the teachers, we went head on... We were pressing our heads against each other... After a while I retreated because she is a strong opponent, she retreated as well... The next one I fought is the other teacher, and at that time, two of the teachers are attacking me, but I fought like crazy! Adam later attracted the first teacher I fought and they fought as well... So I fought with another teacher, and she is as strong as the other teacher... I successfully killed her but I got a scratch on my arm... Later, I just looked at Adam fighting with another teacher, he killed the teacher as well... And then Adam saw me waiting... We all waited for each other to make a move... Adam took it first... He sprinted at me and jumped at me... I pushed him aside and I pounced on him... Later, I broke his neck by biting on it... And before I know it, it's all over... I'm the King!

The director a.k.a another one of the teachers called us to calm down... So after 30 seconds or so, we are back to ourself again... Later, I found out that Peter think himself as a mountain lion while Adam thought himself as one of the Avatar natives...
(All the killing is just acting)

So after that, the other scene is about a scene after a war... Where everyone is grieving on the lost of their love ones... After that, we had lunch, then after that, we are separated into three teams and was given the chance to think of our own drama... Our drama is about a professional pianist who got a broken finger after one of the stage workers pushed him down the stage on purpose... So after that, he was in the hospital and the doctor went to tell the pianist his medical report... She says that he might not be able to continue his career as a pianist anymore...The pianist went crazy after that... He scolded the doctor to get out of the room... And then he sweeps the things on the table to the ground and cries... Later, the worker who pushed the pianist comes in and teases the pianist, causing him to grief even more...So two months later, a girl comes in and advises the pianist... And of course, the pianist couldn't accept it and says that he's a waste in this world... But soon after, he thinks about it over again and finds hope... He started practicing his piano but failed a few times... Two years later, he is on stage performing to the audience that is a lot more than when he has no broken finger and touched the audience's heart... And that's the end of the drama... Alright, the cast: Me as the pianist, Leon as the worker who hurt the pianist, Xie Yen as the girl and of course the doctor...

Later that night, we had an activity like team-building... We had to build the highest tower out of straws... And that time, Abigail asked me if I have scissors or something... And I said I have... And then Xue Ting called me Doraemon... == She said it's because I have everything they need in my backpack... And of course, I gave her a nickname too, that is Mashimaru because of the water bottle she have...

And after the team-building activity, we had a revival meeting or something like that...

The third day is a preparation for our concert that night... We are gonna act a 40 minute long drama... It's one drama act by two teams... One team, one part... I'm the director and "part-actor,part-sound-engineer" in my team... I don't I'll be able to explain the drama to you guys here.... But I'll post the video here is there is a chance... Then goes the preparation and comes the rehearsal... We practiced in a very tight schedule... Out P&W team have no chance to practice our songs at all... I barely finished my dinner before the concert starts...

The concert started at around 8:15PM... The P&W goes first and then it's the first dance, that is a broadway dance... Then comes the drama... The drama is PERFECT, plus the magnificent lightings and sound effects... The drama made quite a few people cry... The last program is the second dance, which is a sign dance I think...

And after the concert ended... We took a lot of photos.... I'll also upload the pics here after I gathered them...

And before we know it, we have to go home... we had to say good-bye to each other... We went home with different emotions... Happy because of the experience and sad because we had to leave each other...

To all my best friends at the camp, I really hope we meet again soon, I will cherish the moments I've had with you guys and lock it in a safe place inside my heart... There are moments that we captured in camera and there are moments that we didn't... I really regretted not taking more photos with you all... Eventhough it's only been a day, I really really really really miss you all... LOVE YOU ALL!!!!=)

Sayunara...

2 more hours...2 more hours.... 2 more hours.....
Haha... Camp is gonna start in 2 hours... Andrew will come and fetch me to Christ Church later...
I won't be able to blog these few days.... But I promise that I'll update you all when I come back from camp, especially pictures...

Well, annyeong guys!!! Loves~~

My second poem I wrote last year.. "The Power Of Love"

THE POWER OF LOVE


Love is Ever-lasting,
Even when we go back to be with God,
Love shall forever last in our Hearts.

Love is Ever-growing,
Even when we Age,
Love will never stop Growing within us.

Love is Ever-powerful,
Even when all else Fails,
Love will back us up.

Love is Ever-merciful,
Even when we Sin,
The love of the Lord shall forgive us.

Love is Ever-kindhearted,
Whenever we Struggle,
Love shall Help and Console us.

But Above All Else,
Love shall forever be within You and Me.

My very first poem that I wrote last year.... "Past Love"

PAST LOVE

O Wonderful Wonderful Past,
How I Loved And Cherished The Past.
The Time When Love Blossoms,
In The Beautiful Colourful Spring.

O Wonderful Wonderful Past,
How I Treasured The Precious Past.
The Time When There Was Only Me and You,
Talking and Laughing Like Two Playful Birds.

O Wonderful Wonderful Past,
How I Am Cheered By The Beautiful Past.
Even In My Darkest Moments,
Your Smile Cheers Me And Stirs A Warm & Fuzzy Feeling Inside My Heart.

O Wonderful Wonderful Past,
Why Do You Have To Leave In This Wonderful Past?
Now, My Heart Is Pierced and Shattered,
By A Thousand Ice-Cold Knives.

O Wonderful Wonderful Past,
Where The Past Is No More Than History.
Why Should I Be Sitting Here Sobbing and Thinking Of The Past,
When I Can Do Something About It Right Now?

O Wonderful Wonderful Past,
Where Present Takes Its Place Rather Than The Past.
I Shall Win Your Heart Back,
So That You Will Always Have A Place,
Deep Inside My Heart.

O Wonderful Wonderful Past,
Finally, Autumn and Winter Is Over.
It Is When Hope and Love Will Soon Blossom,
In The Beautiful Colourful Spring.

BZ BZ!! =)

This two days have been really busy for me... Okay, let me start at last night's singing practice... Remember that I said that I'm starting to doubt that I can't sing? GOD HAS ANSWERED MY PRAYERS! I just don't know how I find out that God has answered my prayers.. It seems like through the teachers and the other singers there, I somehow "see" what God is trying to "tell" me... He's telling me to not give up and keep it up... My mind is finally cleared now.... =D

And on today's events... Our SPC youths went to St. Nicholas' Homes to do some community service... And later we went on a mini-tour around SHM...

Then, in the evening, our youths went to floorball practice... My thumb is injured when we're during a drill... I was the defender at that time, and when Timothy is trying to shoot the ball, the blade of the stick hit my thumb... My thumb is THROBBING right now!
Oh yeah, our team, White Lightning, lost to the other team, that is Black Thunder for the first few matches... So we started discussing our weaknesses and all that... Later, me, Marcus and Timothy started discussing a new strategy... And my oh my! It WORKED! We improved drastically! We actually won the following matches until the end! I couldn't remember how many goals three of us have scored, but the strategy and teamwork that we applied to the matches not only made us scored a lot of goals, but also I think the other team didn't score at all.... The three of us are happy like crazy! The best goal that we scored today is from Marcus... he dragged the ball 180 degrees and then shoot it... it went straight into the goal! And I also scored, for me, an awesome goal that I've shot from the corner of the field...

So yeah, that's it for today... I've learned a few important things today, that is
strategy and teamwork is important in not just a sport, but in our everyday lives... I've also learned that community service is fun! And of course, I've learned that God will answer your prayers when the time is right... We just have to have faith in Him!=D

Can't write anymore cause I'm really tired...Nites everyone! =)

Start of another holiday....

Ah~~ The first school term holiday has started... Feet so happy! =) But the following week is gonna be really busy... Tomorrow I'll be going to St. Nicholas' Home with the other SPC youths to do some community service and then go to floorball practice at night... Monday, there is a leadership training course at school... Wednesday, gonna go to Gurney Plaza with some friends... Thursday-Saturday, music camp at Christ Church... Then Sunday, floorball practice again in the evening... And there are also some practices for the coming singing competition...

It's gonna be really fun! But a problem kept bugging me... Actually, this problem is already there for a long time... It's just that I don't go and bother it... But right now, it bothers me... Curious?? Haha... Well, it's about my voice... First of all, I LOVE SINGING! I've entered singing competitions and the results are not bad... But recently, I kept thinking... Can I sing? Do I have a good voice? For the first question, I CAN sing... I have quite some knowledge about singing like how to sing "a-third-aparts", echoes and so on... But for the second question, I'm not sure... For some time, I actually thought that I have a good voice... But I'm starting to doubt it... Last time when I'm singing to myself, people stared at me in disgust... And just 2 days ago... Marcus told me that my voice is terrible... I'm just really blur about this right now... Whether to believe him, or lie to myself... I'm really struggling now... I've been praying to God to give me a beautiful voice because I love to sing... But I don't know how long I can maintain it... I might just give up... I really hope God will answer my prayers... =(

Well, hope all of you will have fun in your holidays and do something meaningful during this one week long holiday... Peace! =)

C.L.E.A.R.E.D!!!

Since examination is over, I have more time to think... I've thought through the moments I've had in life... The pros and cons, the happiness and the sorrows, the interesting and the dull... My life is full of happiness, fun, excitement, but among the things that has happened in my life, there are pain, sadness, hurtful events... I've thought of what the word "L.O.V.E" has caused me... All the painful memories will never be erased, and I do not want them to be erased... Through the hurt and sorrow, I've gained knowledge and experience... Which is why I do not want the pain to be washed away... I don't want to redo my wrongs and mistakes... And most of all, I don't want the sad endings to re-occur again!

I've thought through it... Now is NOT the time... I know that falling in love with that special someone is really normal... I don't know about the others... But for me, I won't let relationships get in the way of me enjoying teenage life! I've seen people broken-hearted over and over and over again... And I don't think I could ever bear the pain of being broken-hearted ever again... But there is one thing I'm quite curious about... Sometimes, when a couple break up, they lived as if nothing has happened, and they became more happier... And then, weeks later, both of them found another girl or guy and repeat the process again... Don't you think that this is wrong? That is also one of the reason why I do not want to get into a relationship so early, because I'm afraid that I would forget about the meaning and definitions of love and make a mistake...

Well, love is now a no no for me... I'm gonna live my life to the fullest and praise God in every way I can!!! Anybody with me?? =P

Exam is OVER!!! =D

Woohoo!! The first-term exam is finally over!! But this time, the exam is ultra-hard... Don't believe me? Go ask the other Form 3 CLHS students! =P This time I'm kinda confident that my English and Science is gonna get full marks... So happy!! Living Skills is not that hard, but chinese, maths and history is like HELL ON EARTH!! I didn't have time to finish maths and I believe the majority of Form 3 CLHS students are the same as me... The questions are like 10 times harder than our Singapore Enrichment questions... T^T But overall, I think I did quite good in this exam... Well, gotta go enjoy my sweet free time... Chow! =D

~Steven~

Exam!!!!

Alright, I could finally spare some time to write on my blog.... First of all, as the title says it, EXAM IS STARTING TOMORROW!!!! The studies I've had this few days are making me CRAZY!!! Still, I have no confidence in my examinations except for my English, Bahasa Malaysia, Science and Mathematics.... History and Geography are DEFINITELY killing me... But I really hope that I could at least get all my subjects pass the 60% mark....

Alright, getting to the end of my blog post... In conclusion, I wish everyone that is taking their examinations tomorrow (and of course, me myself) all the best!

God Bless You All!!!! =)

<3s

~Steven~

I'm happy for ya! ; )

After listening to what you've said and seeing your blog post.... I felt happy for you! You seem to have cleared the fog in your mind and have railed in to the right railway.... Which made me really glad....I hope you will still be strong as always and have faith in Him for as long as time could tell... Sometimes, we might lose things, but through the sadness and misery, we may gain something that we might not have gained without the pain... Hope that you could see a clearer picture of your life and that God may help you solve the things that seems impossible for you to solve, and that God will assist you in accomplishing your goals in life... We might not know each other for long, but from my point of view, you have grown and become more mature in not just life, but also in making decisions...

Live in God's ways and keep holding on to the things that you cherish most in life! =)

-To my sis, Kairi.....

~Steven~

Very sorry....

Very sorry for not updating you about the music camp.... I was trying to ask Christ Church and see if you can pass up the form and the money on the first day of camp for the pass week.... I only got the form last Sunday so I'm very sorry... Hope you're not mad at me.... =(

Well, I saw your blog.... I really hope you'll go.... And you just started learning guitar by the way, so this camp will help quite a lot... Well, if you have any doubts, just tell me. You can trust me, right? =)

Okay..... about today's events.... Nothing special happened today... Just a normal school day.... But there is an assembly to day, and I was REALLY sleepy.... I almost slept in the assembly and almost got caught by the prefects.... =P

So yeah, this is my blog post.... =)

My feelings...

I just read your blog... so many feelings that I didn't know is flowing through me at that time... If I've hurt you or anything... I'm really sorry... I've given you advices, telling you to cherish life and everything... But I've been and still are struggling to put the advices I've given you into my own life too... So many things have happened to me these two years... Friends betrayed me... Backstabbing me in the internet... Church pals hurt my feelings... But there are also a few great things that happened in my life that I will treasure forever... One of it, is meeting you... We may not have talked to each other before in real life... You may not see it, but you have given me encouragements that no one could ever give... You're the only person that I've ever talked to so freely... I just want you to know, that you have become a part of my life, and I don't want it to be ripped off... I don't want anything to happen to you... I just want you to be happy... I... I'm still really confused right now... Whether if I'm doing the right thing... Whether if I'm walking on the right path...

I don't know how to end this post... I just hope you would understand my feelings... And I wanted to say I'm sorry if I've hurt your feelings... Please forgive me...

A great day...

Today I felt very content... It started early morning at church... 2 weeks ago, I've found out that one of my CF advisors have no church to go to anymore... She said that the church she used to go to doesn't suit her.... So yesterday, after our CF meeting, I talked to her and asked her if she wanted to try out our church service... She said it's far but she promised that she'll come... I asked Marcus last night if he could attend the Chinese service (which he never do) so that the teacher will not feel lonely even if I'm there, 'cause the teacher is Mark's BM and Form teacher... He agreed! How relieved I am, 'cause I know that I will feel awkward if I'm alone...

So the next day, the teacher came, me and Marcus greeted her and led her to a seat... We sat together throughout the service... At first, the teacher has a lot of problems getting used to our church liturgy, so I helped her throughout the service... I'm kinda glad that the teacher was not feeling awkward, if she was, she didn't show it... At the end of the service, the pastor did some announcements, and then he asked who is the first time coming to our church to raise their hand, me and Marcus looked at our teacher and, at the same time, she looked at us. She blushed and scowled at us... Me and Mark laughed at that, and then a while later, she joined the laughter... haha...So after the service, me and Marcus led her to the canteen to have breakfast fellowship. There, I shared to her about our church and answered some of the questions she asked... And so we chatted and discussed about a lot of things including CF and planning to organize a music camp for CF... We had a lot of fun chatting, but time passed by in an blink of an eye, and before we know it, we have to depart soon... We bid farewell to the teacher and then we went to our youth fellowship...

So, after church, me and my family went to have lunch... And then we went home... A while later, mum fetched me to practice for June's international singing competition... I was so nervous then because it is the first time I'm going to the practice after the audition for such a large-scale competition... It really gave me chills.... When I reached there, I was overjoyed to see my bro Deng Jay there, 'cause I won't be the only Form 3 there, the others are at least 17...The practice is very relaxing, which I'm glad, 'cause I thought it's gonna be really serious... And I'm really happy that they chose "Trading My Sorrows" from Hillsong as the competition song... =) We are gonna record our song in a studio in April... =D So after an hour, we went home... The next practice is gonna be the friday before the holidays...

My day has been really fun and meaningful... Which I wanted to thank God for it... For my feelings, I'm still really confused right now, I hope that God will clear the fog away from my mind so that I can see a clearer picture... Haiz... But for now, I just have to wait...

Well, my blog post ends here.... Peace! =)

~Steven~

Darn it! Get Over It Steven!!!

Recently, conflicts have been happening between me and you, "brother"... Right now, looking at you could make me really fed-up! You said before that I was like you... But NO!! WE WERE NEVER ALIKE AND SHALL NEVER BE!!

Teasing me every time when something good happens to me.... Who do you think you are?? Last week, I was practicing the electric guitar in church after the youth service... you came over to me and said that I should lower down the "Gain" a lil'... The way you talk is like as though I don't know anything about guitar... But let me tell you this: I don't know about the future, but for now, I'm better than you in music, in theory and also in practical... And I know more about guitars and amps and everything than you'll ever think... So don't you ever ORDER me to get off the stage and let you play your guitar in P&W when it isn't even your turn to play!

Every time you infuriated me, every time you treated me as if I'm an immature baby, and every SINGLE time, you treated me as if nothing happened and that you are a good friend... And the cycle keeps repeating itself.... And you call yourself a friend?

Friends, after looking at this you may think that I'm very 小气... I might be even spoiling my image here... But I've been holding the anger in for way too long... Longer than an average human could handle... So guys, do forgive me...

But there are a few things that I've been thinking: Is he worth being angry of? Should I treat a Brother in Christ the way I'm treating him now? Should I just forget about it?

Thank God, I've found a few answers to my questions during today's youth fellowship... Marcus shared that during this year, a whole new year, we should forget and forgive your friends of wrong-doings... And get together as soon as possible... Cause you might not see him anymore 10 years after today... 5 years after today... A year after today... A month after today... Or even tomorrow... You'll never know... They might go overseas, go to their different ways that our Heavenly Father has planned for them... They may not even be in this world anymore...

At that time, I could feel the sadness that is flowing inside of him... And I pitied him very much... I could see sadness in his eyes... After the accident, it has caused us a great loss... And we have dwelled in the sadness for quite some time... He taught us, the advice was sincerely coming out from his heart, that we should really, really treasure the ones we know... At that time, i think God was speaking to me through him...

Right now, the only thing I could do is to forget the past... and treasure the present... There was a saying that "the past is history, the future is a mystery, and that today is a gift, that's why it is called the Present..." I truly believe that...

Well, I'm still confused with my feelings about everything, just like always...

~Steven~

Happy But Sad...

I just finished reading her blogs just now... Still, my emotions are going a lil' crazy... We've been really close since God Knows When... I saw that in her blogs, she wrote that she is still thinking of the one that she likes and hates at the same time... I'm really confused with my feelings at that moment... I felt happy and sad at the same time... Happy because she still have someone to hope for... Sad because I'm not that person... But, you know... Who am I to judge? But, I have a feeling that I could never replace him... Argh!! What have I been thinking lately?!

I'm still quite worried about her... School friends treating her badly and unfairly... I've been giving her advices... But I don't know if it had helped her... Her emotions are still bouncing around the four walls with confusion...

Well, I hope that all goes well for you... I've been praying hard for you and will always be... If you're looking at this, I just want you to know that I'll always be there for you no matter what kind of situation you're in... I just hope that you could live strong and happily...

~Steven~

My first time blogging,,,,

This is is my very first blog, and I don't know how should I start it... lol.... Alright, 1st of all, todays events..... Today is the last CNY holiday of the year, so sad that the holidays went by in a blink of an eye, but I'm also happy that school will reopen tomorrow, 'cause I missed my friends... Oh yeah, and one special thing happened today.... it started off I think yesterday or the day before yesterday... She asked me for my address, then I asked her why she wanted my address, and she just said she's just curious... So I gave her my address... And surprise surprise! I received a package delivery from her just when when I was having lunch.... I thought I had got a prize from a competition that i've entered long ago.... But, guess what, I got a gift from her... I was so surprised, touched, happy.... A lot of different emotions pouring into me, I just couldn't describe it... This is the first time a girl has sent me a gift... So after I've finished my lunch, I went straight upstairs with the gift in my hand... My mom looked at me in a curious manner... She saw me with the gift and the name of the sender, but she didn't say anything, she just smiled! Ha! So, yeah, my very first blog and my very first post... =)

~Steven~