Darn it! Get Over It Steven!!!

Recently, conflicts have been happening between me and you, "brother"... Right now, looking at you could make me really fed-up! You said before that I was like you... But NO!! WE WERE NEVER ALIKE AND SHALL NEVER BE!!

Teasing me every time when something good happens to me.... Who do you think you are?? Last week, I was practicing the electric guitar in church after the youth service... you came over to me and said that I should lower down the "Gain" a lil'... The way you talk is like as though I don't know anything about guitar... But let me tell you this: I don't know about the future, but for now, I'm better than you in music, in theory and also in practical... And I know more about guitars and amps and everything than you'll ever think... So don't you ever ORDER me to get off the stage and let you play your guitar in P&W when it isn't even your turn to play!

Every time you infuriated me, every time you treated me as if I'm an immature baby, and every SINGLE time, you treated me as if nothing happened and that you are a good friend... And the cycle keeps repeating itself.... And you call yourself a friend?

Friends, after looking at this you may think that I'm very 小气... I might be even spoiling my image here... But I've been holding the anger in for way too long... Longer than an average human could handle... So guys, do forgive me...

But there are a few things that I've been thinking: Is he worth being angry of? Should I treat a Brother in Christ the way I'm treating him now? Should I just forget about it?

Thank God, I've found a few answers to my questions during today's youth fellowship... Marcus shared that during this year, a whole new year, we should forget and forgive your friends of wrong-doings... And get together as soon as possible... Cause you might not see him anymore 10 years after today... 5 years after today... A year after today... A month after today... Or even tomorrow... You'll never know... They might go overseas, go to their different ways that our Heavenly Father has planned for them... They may not even be in this world anymore...

At that time, I could feel the sadness that is flowing inside of him... And I pitied him very much... I could see sadness in his eyes... After the accident, it has caused us a great loss... And we have dwelled in the sadness for quite some time... He taught us, the advice was sincerely coming out from his heart, that we should really, really treasure the ones we know... At that time, i think God was speaking to me through him...

Right now, the only thing I could do is to forget the past... and treasure the present... There was a saying that "the past is history, the future is a mystery, and that today is a gift, that's why it is called the Present..." I truly believe that...

Well, I'm still confused with my feelings about everything, just like always...

~Steven~