Future

Geez, going to the education fair doesn't give me answers, 

It raises more questions!

Sigh....

Dreams.... 

What are dreams to you guys?

Well,

I definitely have my own dreams...

Walking in a hall full of bustling people...

A hall crowded by college and university representatives...

I was walking around...

Trying to find the colleges or academies

That I'm interested in...

I found a few for graphic design:

The One Academy...

Equator Academy of Art...

TARCollege...

La Salle College of The Arts....

Sigh... I love graphic design...

After going through all the colleges for graphic design...

I caught a glimpse of an academy which is kinda interesting...

Why?

It's an academy for fine arts...

An academy for music...

When I walked over to take a closer look...

The guy over there asked me to sit down...

And he began to introduce the academy to me...

I told him that I'm interested in music...

He told me briefly of the music courses there...

And then weirdly...

He started to tell me about their main course

that is Diploma in Theatre....

So I listened to him...

He asked me a few questions:

What instrument do you play?

Do you like acting?

Do you have any experience in drama?

Do you have any experience in MC-ing?

So I answered all of them...

And told him my experiences in performances, drama, music and stuff...

And then he went on and on introducing the academy to me...

And then one comment from him struck me...

He said to me,

"You really have a very high potential in the performing arts!"

That caught me by surprise!

I mean,

I do dream of myself being a performer, singer, actor and all that stuff...

But I've never really thought of actually being one!

After he talked to me to what seems like 20 minutes...

I said thank you and I'll think about it...

And then I walked away...

With burning enthusiasm in me...

I thought to myself,

I actually wanted to be in the world of performing arts!

By now, you must be thinking if which academy would that be...

Well, let me tell you...

It's the Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts...

Yup, you heard me....

Nanyang...

One of the top academies in Singapore...

There is another academy which also have courses on the performing arts...

La Salle College of The Arts...

But Nanyang is still my priority...

Sigh...

I really don't know what to do!

I mean...

It's performing arts!

And my parents never wanted me to be an actor, musician and all those stuff...

They want me to study engineering...

But performing arts and acting is my passion!

I wanna do what I love to do...

Yea...

Maybe when I finish my studies...

My paycheck won't have as many digits as the paycheck of an engineer...

But so what?!

I don't wanna spend half of my lifetime doing what I don't wanna do!

I want to do what I love!

And I understand that doing what you love,

Is one of the greatest pleasures in life!

I've found out that,

Being a performer...

Has always been my dream!

But who am I kidding?

Where would I find the courage to break it out to them?

That I wanna study performing arts, theatre, drama and acting?

They would kill me!

Even if I tell them... 

They would never approve of me...

Who am I gonna be,

in ten years time?

Graphic designer?

Product designer?

Engineer?

Or someone who I wanted to be,

A performer or actor?

I really hope that God will give me an answer,

Who He wants to be...

But at the mean time...

I hope someone would just counsel me on this matter...

Someone to tell me what I should do...

And what I should be doing...

And all I could do right now...

Is pray...

(God help me)