A great day...

Today I felt very content... It started early morning at church... 2 weeks ago, I've found out that one of my CF advisors have no church to go to anymore... She said that the church she used to go to doesn't suit her.... So yesterday, after our CF meeting, I talked to her and asked her if she wanted to try out our church service... She said it's far but she promised that she'll come... I asked Marcus last night if he could attend the Chinese service (which he never do) so that the teacher will not feel lonely even if I'm there, 'cause the teacher is Mark's BM and Form teacher... He agreed! How relieved I am, 'cause I know that I will feel awkward if I'm alone...

So the next day, the teacher came, me and Marcus greeted her and led her to a seat... We sat together throughout the service... At first, the teacher has a lot of problems getting used to our church liturgy, so I helped her throughout the service... I'm kinda glad that the teacher was not feeling awkward, if she was, she didn't show it... At the end of the service, the pastor did some announcements, and then he asked who is the first time coming to our church to raise their hand, me and Marcus looked at our teacher and, at the same time, she looked at us. She blushed and scowled at us... Me and Mark laughed at that, and then a while later, she joined the laughter... haha...So after the service, me and Marcus led her to the canteen to have breakfast fellowship. There, I shared to her about our church and answered some of the questions she asked... And so we chatted and discussed about a lot of things including CF and planning to organize a music camp for CF... We had a lot of fun chatting, but time passed by in an blink of an eye, and before we know it, we have to depart soon... We bid farewell to the teacher and then we went to our youth fellowship...

So, after church, me and my family went to have lunch... And then we went home... A while later, mum fetched me to practice for June's international singing competition... I was so nervous then because it is the first time I'm going to the practice after the audition for such a large-scale competition... It really gave me chills.... When I reached there, I was overjoyed to see my bro Deng Jay there, 'cause I won't be the only Form 3 there, the others are at least 17...The practice is very relaxing, which I'm glad, 'cause I thought it's gonna be really serious... And I'm really happy that they chose "Trading My Sorrows" from Hillsong as the competition song... =) We are gonna record our song in a studio in April... =D So after an hour, we went home... The next practice is gonna be the friday before the holidays...

My day has been really fun and meaningful... Which I wanted to thank God for it... For my feelings, I'm still really confused right now, I hope that God will clear the fog away from my mind so that I can see a clearer picture... Haiz... But for now, I just have to wait...

Well, my blog post ends here.... Peace! =)

~Steven~

Darn it! Get Over It Steven!!!

Recently, conflicts have been happening between me and you, "brother"... Right now, looking at you could make me really fed-up! You said before that I was like you... But NO!! WE WERE NEVER ALIKE AND SHALL NEVER BE!!

Teasing me every time when something good happens to me.... Who do you think you are?? Last week, I was practicing the electric guitar in church after the youth service... you came over to me and said that I should lower down the "Gain" a lil'... The way you talk is like as though I don't know anything about guitar... But let me tell you this: I don't know about the future, but for now, I'm better than you in music, in theory and also in practical... And I know more about guitars and amps and everything than you'll ever think... So don't you ever ORDER me to get off the stage and let you play your guitar in P&W when it isn't even your turn to play!

Every time you infuriated me, every time you treated me as if I'm an immature baby, and every SINGLE time, you treated me as if nothing happened and that you are a good friend... And the cycle keeps repeating itself.... And you call yourself a friend?

Friends, after looking at this you may think that I'm very 小气... I might be even spoiling my image here... But I've been holding the anger in for way too long... Longer than an average human could handle... So guys, do forgive me...

But there are a few things that I've been thinking: Is he worth being angry of? Should I treat a Brother in Christ the way I'm treating him now? Should I just forget about it?

Thank God, I've found a few answers to my questions during today's youth fellowship... Marcus shared that during this year, a whole new year, we should forget and forgive your friends of wrong-doings... And get together as soon as possible... Cause you might not see him anymore 10 years after today... 5 years after today... A year after today... A month after today... Or even tomorrow... You'll never know... They might go overseas, go to their different ways that our Heavenly Father has planned for them... They may not even be in this world anymore...

At that time, I could feel the sadness that is flowing inside of him... And I pitied him very much... I could see sadness in his eyes... After the accident, it has caused us a great loss... And we have dwelled in the sadness for quite some time... He taught us, the advice was sincerely coming out from his heart, that we should really, really treasure the ones we know... At that time, i think God was speaking to me through him...

Right now, the only thing I could do is to forget the past... and treasure the present... There was a saying that "the past is history, the future is a mystery, and that today is a gift, that's why it is called the Present..." I truly believe that...

Well, I'm still confused with my feelings about everything, just like always...

~Steven~

Happy But Sad...

I just finished reading her blogs just now... Still, my emotions are going a lil' crazy... We've been really close since God Knows When... I saw that in her blogs, she wrote that she is still thinking of the one that she likes and hates at the same time... I'm really confused with my feelings at that moment... I felt happy and sad at the same time... Happy because she still have someone to hope for... Sad because I'm not that person... But, you know... Who am I to judge? But, I have a feeling that I could never replace him... Argh!! What have I been thinking lately?!

I'm still quite worried about her... School friends treating her badly and unfairly... I've been giving her advices... But I don't know if it had helped her... Her emotions are still bouncing around the four walls with confusion...

Well, I hope that all goes well for you... I've been praying hard for you and will always be... If you're looking at this, I just want you to know that I'll always be there for you no matter what kind of situation you're in... I just hope that you could live strong and happily...

~Steven~

My first time blogging,,,,

This is is my very first blog, and I don't know how should I start it... lol.... Alright, 1st of all, todays events..... Today is the last CNY holiday of the year, so sad that the holidays went by in a blink of an eye, but I'm also happy that school will reopen tomorrow, 'cause I missed my friends... Oh yeah, and one special thing happened today.... it started off I think yesterday or the day before yesterday... She asked me for my address, then I asked her why she wanted my address, and she just said she's just curious... So I gave her my address... And surprise surprise! I received a package delivery from her just when when I was having lunch.... I thought I had got a prize from a competition that i've entered long ago.... But, guess what, I got a gift from her... I was so surprised, touched, happy.... A lot of different emotions pouring into me, I just couldn't describe it... This is the first time a girl has sent me a gift... So after I've finished my lunch, I went straight upstairs with the gift in my hand... My mom looked at me in a curious manner... She saw me with the gift and the name of the sender, but she didn't say anything, she just smiled! Ha! So, yeah, my very first blog and my very first post... =)

~Steven~